Aggie's world...

The world hates me...

Sat, 25 May 2013 20:40:44 -0400

Every fucking time. I swear there’s always something. Always!! Fuck you world seriously fuck you. Even though it was a maybe I was still hoping… Why do I bother? Wishing and hoping to see you is like wish the doe doe bird wasn’t extinct. I know in the back of my mind something’s going to come up no matter what… and then I end up sad or disappointed. So I give up! I’m coming to the realization that seeing you is nearly impossible and even if you do one day say you’re coming I won’t believe it until you’re at my door. The kicker? It isn’t even your fault, things legitimately happen, not planned in the least, and its not always just you, shit happens on my half too at the most inconvenient times. so I can’t even be mad… Seems like the world is against me seeing you, so heres my towel its getting thrown in. What a coincidence it’s “Towel Day”! 😕

pretzel-swirl: meow-fuck: If you were having a bad day, here...

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:08:24 -0400

pretzel-swirl:

meow-fuck:

If you were having a bad day, here are some kittens in a bathtub.

never have I ever seen kittens calmly swimming in water

Kittens!! Swimming.. Say what? Lol

I need to start saving for my next tattoo… Miss getting...

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:05:23 -0400

I need to start saving for my next tattoo… Miss getting inked.

angrydragon90: Oh hi She is gorgeous!

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:02:19 -0400

angrydragon90:

Oh hi

She is gorgeous!

erz-unclassified-pictures: right car with sand, 2013....

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:00:40 -0400

erz-unclassified-pictures:

right car with sand, 2013. Erz

Beautiful

lovequotesrus: EVERYTHING LOVE Great movie!

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:56:17 -0400

lovequotesrus:

EVERYTHING LOVE

Great movie!

Awesome

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:46:52 -0400

Awesome

Person unknown

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:42:07 -0400

I hate getting text messages from people I don’t know. And if you do know me, you know I swear and cuss like a trucker. Haha smh just say who you are.. It’s simple hi I’m blah blah. And it would be squashed. The end.

"For a moment I wish you could share my feelings. That there words to describe the happiness you..."

Thu, 09 May 2013 02:58:38 -0400

“For a moment I wish you could share my feelings.
That there words to describe the happiness you have brought me.
There are no words to accurately depict how you make me feel…
Because its as simple as you make me feel…
After having been emotionless for a time longer than I care to admit,
You’ve helped me feel emotions I thought would just be a memory of the past,
And for that there are no words…”

- Lokelani Ellsworth

Obnoxious rant

Tue, 07 May 2013 22:13:05 -0400

Thursday.. I have a new doctor to go see.. In Boston a specialist for infertility.. He’s my new gyno, and I’m absolutely terrified to go. His specialty is infertility, not like I’m trying to have kids now, but already knowing I had 25% or less chance of having kids ever because of PCOS.. The only thing I had going for me is that I didn’t have cysts.. Now that I have those lovely things, wonder what my chances will be now? It’s a scary to think you’ll never have the ability to have children. I am female, you’re told from a young age you’re eventually supposed to grow up get married and have kids of your own.. How do women handle being told its impossible? I have a 25% chance… But who knows if that has changed. Guess I might have answers in the coming months. But maybe I shouldn’t worry over things I know nothing about.. Right?

Late night confession

Tue, 07 May 2013 00:21:25 -0400

I cry most night, I guess I’m not a robot. I get lonely and sad the most at night but most of the time I’m fine. Yet there are night when I just can’t help it and I begin weeping then bursting into tears. I pretend everything fine or okay, I smile through the days and at night I take off my mask and let my emotions out.
Sometimes it’s because I miss my dad, or I had a bad day. Tonight it’s because I’m frustrated with the fact there’s little to no communication going on aside from photo’s, the fact have seen you since December as well as how much I kills me I still haven’t had a chance to explain in person what the hell happened a few months ago.
I miss listening to your heart beat, the hugs that felt like I was safe, the kisses that took my breath away, the sound of your voice, the smile that would make me get butterflies.. More than anything I just miss you. Yet I can’t say this because I am far to scared because I don’t want to be venerable. However in a way I guess I’d rather hear from you through little quirky picture messages then not at all.

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Thu, 18 Apr 2013 12:12:13 -0400

zodiaccity: Zodiac Libra problems. #libraproblems

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 12:05:37 -0400

zodiaccity:

Zodiac Libra problems.

#libraproblems

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Sat, 06 Apr 2013 22:02:03 -0400

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Wed, 20 Mar 2013 13:18:37 -0400

Quick thought

Sat, 16 Feb 2013 15:51:10 -0500

Why is it that the richest people always seem to be angry or grumpy and the poorest of people always seem to be smiling or hopeful?
Maybe it’s true money can’t buy happiness, and happiness isn’t determined by what you have but what you’re thankful for.

Just a random thought..

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Thu, 14 Feb 2013 17:28:10 -0500

Confession

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 05:41:43 -0500

Why are you trying to come back? The one thing I wanted in this world is for you to die a slow and painful death. And I’ve gotten my wish. You have been dying slowly and painfully and I couldn’t care less that you are dying.

However, I realized in my rage that I need to know what you are dying from because even though I cut every last tie I had from you, I still share your genetic makeup. You are technically my biological father, but you’re nothing more than the man the stole my innocence and destroyed my life.

You have been looking for me, I haven’t moved in 16 years… So you reach out to my cousin’s mother to try to find me. Fine you have my attention, only for two reasons. 1. I need to know what you’re dying from and if its hereditary and 2. Why? I want you to own up to what you did and explain yourself, you selfish son of a bitch.

However, I feel like there will be fine print to read because with you, nothing is simple. I want my answers I deserve them. You took from me something I’ll never get back, and I’m “your daughter” you should at least answer for what you’ve done. Once you have, if you do, maybe my nightmares will go away once again and I can have my life back.

You will never be my father, my dad died almost two years ago. And he was the greatest dad ever. I’ve told you off so many times, but you don’t listen. I wonder if in your dying days you’ve come to realize I hate you. I was supposed to be able to trust you, and you burned that. The only satisfaction I have is knowing you’re dying slowly and I can only hope painfully, and its taken a toll on you. I have tried to forgive you but I can’t, and knowing I’ll have to see you soon is causing inner turmoil, but I’ll get through this, because I was raised by the two best parents a girl could ask for, and they’ve taught me to be strong.

P.S. I hope you rot in HELL and the devil tortures you. But justice is being served to you, you dying bastard.

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Thu, 10 Jan 2013 02:49:42 -0500

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Tue, 08 Jan 2013 12:27:25 -0500